farmie mua

oh my gosh!!! i'm so damn confuse now!! i reali don't know wat to do!! can someone come and save me!! is this the end??...actually i'm stil tinkin weather to write tis here...cux not much know tat i hav a boyfriend~~ok..i think problem solved...juz like i said it..i have a bf now...

it's already been 2 months...it may seem short for many people..but then for me..it's quite long already..er..thats not my point~~my point is this is the first time i've been so angri wif him!!

not to say that kinda angri..it's like those wif abit of sad,heart breakin potion in it T.T

i reali don't know wat to do..jux now he ask me weather i wan to seperate for a while..wow!! when i heard him say that my heart kinda like freezed ~~ everything around me seems to jux stopped. scared..

but after talkin to my bro jux now..i feel like seperating for a while..i mean let him hav some time to tink properly..to think weather i'm suitable for him..n aso me myself ned some time to think...i noe tat i hav not been a gud gf to him ~ i kinda ingnore him alot..espeacilly when i'm studying or wif my friends..i noe that he is used to his gf being wif him like for 24 7 ..(cux his ex used to do that) .. but i'm different~~i stil have my own life to live..n i wnt for a 100 years ignore my friends or my sis or my studies for...

another 5 to 6 weeks will b d lax exam..n u noe tat i m aiming for 1st..n as everyone can c tat my results for d 3rd term is kanasai~~so in order to acchieve my goal..i gotta work supper hard for it..n if u cnt bare wif my 'amount of ignore' to u b4..then i bet u wnt b able to bare d one tat is goina cum...

today should b a very happi day for me..cux i finally can hang out wif my girlfriend n aso buy lots of stuff..but now i feel very very very very very bad...fel like cryin but no tears~~i want to cal u jux now but i duno wat to say...i fel like saying comforting words but i can't cux i'm angri..

i'm sori~~maybe we shoulden't have started this relationship in the first place..mayb i shouldn't have replied ur message tat day..then v wouldn't hav known each other n now v both wil b hapi humans..

oh mi gosh!!!!~~~i reali don't noe la..if my paremts noe anything about tis i m soooooo dead!!

then they wil sure say tat d reason i get kanasai results is cux i hav a bf...but actually not reali..is cux of tis stupid sinus infection~~hav been on medication for bout 5 weeks..tis is d 6th..my whole brain is BLUR~~ but no worries...i wnt let my 200 fly away (i hope)..i wil try my best..work d butt out of me to save myself...

i've not been to church since new year...n aso not praying for like a vry vry long time..soree ~~

arghhhhhh!!! i'm stil very confused..espeacially after listening to wat bro said ><..topsee tourning @.@ he say to c wat happen tomoro..if he is ok thn i should b ok..but i'm abit woree..cuxx i hav a tinsy winsy problem wif my temper~~~

can't sleep tonite..well..go update my profiles la..cux i oni can go on9 once a week as i'm stayin in my skul's hostel...hmm...to my frens tat read tis..ples to tel him if u noe him..

n those who jux noe tat i hav a bf already ples dun tel d grown ups...dun worry abit about me.. i won't let these things come in my 'goal way'...

sob sob..i cnt upload those photos tat i took jux now cuz i lost my camble.. T0T